Fashion as a form of Escapism

Fashion for me is not just about spending loads of cash on things that just go out-of-style in the next year, fashion is how you show appreciation on yourself, fashion motivates us in some ways that ordinary people can't, it uplifts our emotions, and it is definitely a therapy where there are no exchanged words just mutual understanding in the most impossible way--like as if the material just said, "I know how you feel."

As a child, fashion has seen me grow. I remembered how I always buy sketch pads, lock myself in a room and start drawing on them dresses;  how I got lost with every stroke of my pencil; and how I was really focused nailing that perfect curve of the dress. As children, we always get what we want; and as life dawned on us, we have to step up with reality and achieve real goals in order to compete with the real world. And that's when the problem steps-in, I was determined to pursue my dreams in life, which is to become a fashion designer, and I was denied of what could've been my future. It was hard at that time because I have to incorporate other people's goals into my own and I have to adjust them in order to cater every expectation they throw on my path; and it wasn't the best of both worlds for me, I was in constant battle with myself, the one that I couldn't win from.

It was a downfall for everything for me, I was frustrated, I forgot what I want to become and just became rudderless. I was in motion but I don't know where I was going.--There were even times when I'm studying my subjects and out of frustration, I'll just drew myself a dress no matter how I'm consciously aware that if I don't study, I'll get zeroes on my tests, and I did got one.--Then came a point when I remembered my dreams of becoming a fashion designer, it created a ripple of hope in my life that changed my whole perception of what kind of hell I was in and turned it into a challenge in order to achieve what I really want.  I always love to challenge myself, I am a kind of person where no matter how much I fail, never will I give up on that challenge--and this situation I'm in now is definitely the kind of challenge I was looking for. It's all about mindset and how you deal with your self that overcomes your fears. So when it seems like there's no light at the end of your tunnel, create your own light and be your own guide. The realization of failure is when you realized you never did anything at all. You don't have to have someone else in your life to make you feel better, you are in charge of your own happiness, you are in charge of your future.

Fashion is like the hospital for my feelings; and the medicine industry should make a pill that makes the person taking it feel the temporary relief fashion offers. Fashion is euphoria you can wear, and definitely an ecstasy you are guilty with addiction. And if you feel suicidal, buy yourself a helluva expensive Givenchy "Antigona" bag because the thousand dollar price--or two--will make you feel like you've actually died a thousand times.